ALOT HAS HAPPENED.

early 2017, i was in a bad place. a really bad place. happy to say that things got much better after that! and then things got bad again...but now its all just okay i guess? so here's a summary.

bascally, after my last post, my highschool crush came back into my life. we started dating and she ook all the pain away. everything was smooth. i had finally gotten a job and made some money, fixed my car, and started having fun! but that was short lived. me and her ran into problems. and over the course of about a year and change (almost 2) the relationship slowly died, with intermittent happiness. so thats a bummer.

in between all of that though, and after working and saving and focusing on my girlfriend at the time for the rest of 2017, i moved back to New York City, my hometown, from New Jersey, to start my life as an adult in January 2018. in order to get on my feet, i crashed with a few family members and started working at an amusement park (coney island/ luna park for those of you that know about it) in Brooklyn, NY around the end of February/Beginning of March 2018. met some people and had a lot of fun! but i had to keep moving forward.

after only a couple months and a bunch of job searching and resume editing, i got a job working for Dell repairing computers for tons of big businesses, and it's the best job i could've asked for so early in my lifetime! getting great experience from it too. i got offered a job from google, but they wanted me to move to california, and i just couldnt. my whole family is here on the east coast, mostly in NYC. it was too hard! but anyways, i started making decent money with Dell, and i finally got my own place! im renting a room in Harlem and im comfortable for the time being.

now, im just working and trying to experiment with technology. I modded my GBA to use a Dualshock 3 battery and micro USB charger, I modded my 3DS to use the same charger, built my own desktop computer using XBOX 360 parts and some random parts i had lying around (which ironically is running Arch Linux) and a few more projects in the works. i've been thinking about my ex a little bit and been depressed, but my hate for her (and the idea that i should stay away from relationships for a while), my job, and my hobbies have been my saving graces. i stopped programming for a little while because of my depression and things, but im slowly starting again. same with socializing on the internet-- hoping to get aquainted with all the new technologies, and new people, as soon as possible! wish me luck!!

I've been super depressed lately. crying a lot and feeling bad for myself. it sucks ass, really.

first and foremost, my older brother died. he didn't make it to 2017, but he still went out with a happy heart. i cried a lot. i cried HARD. i got depressed.

next, i got my heart broken by a woman i loved more than myself and i fell into an even DEEPER depression. im still crying a lot over her. i'm mad at her because i gave up a lot for her and even turned some friends into enemies because of her. that being said, at the same time i feel like i deserve better, BUT at the same time i feel like i couldnt find better. you dont find many short cute girls who would love a short nerd like me. honestly, breaking every limb in my body would be less painful than this. 

lastly, i'm so depressed that i'm making mistakes when it comes to getting a job, which makes me unable to get a job, and in turn makes me more depressed. i've cried 3-4 times today thinking about all of this. my life is not going how i wanted it to go. but i'm slowly trying to break out of the depression. it all starts with working harder to get a career. career = money, and with money, a lot of things become possible, like leading a healthier lifestyle, fixing my car, and getting my own place. maybe meeting new people in person will make me feel better. whoever said money cant buy happiness was misguided.

well, if you read all this, thank you for reading my rant. i needed to write it all down and let it out.

someone turn back time pls i want to be a baby again

growing up SUCKS

heeeeey youuuu guuuuuuys!

i wonder how many people got that reference lol.

anyway how's it goin' NG? I got tired of looking at my last post so i thought i'd give an update.

my school's fall semester is finally over!! i can breathe now!

i'll be spending this time programming my ass off and watching/playing as many anime/video games as i possibly can.

so yeah if anyone's up for playing video games with me (PS4, PS3, Wii U, 3DS, or Steam),

or maybe even doing some personal programming jams sometime, just shoot me a PM!

also shoot me a PM if you want some anime recommendations, cause i have pretty good taste :>

later doods!

hey ng today was the worst birthday
i couldnt even relax as much as i wanted cause i had skewl
didnt program that much nor did i play any video games
and i had a test in algebra class which i'm pretty sure i failed
at the end of the day i laughed and blazed it with my friend which was prob the highest point of my day
she's so cute

anyway i just finished listening to music on plug.dj with some of my friends. nice way to end a gross day :>

well i'm 19 now. weird

so, how've you guys been??

I haven't made a post in a while so i figured i should ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Hows it going, doods?

I've been visiting this site since like 2006 (even though my join date is like 2009),

and so i've come to respect NG as a community project.

it's come so far...and I along with it.

I remember me being an immature and terrible kid, now that i look back to those old days...

anyway NG has evolved into something much greater that what it used to be, and i totally respect tom and the staff for coming this far. 2 thousand and mother-fucking 14 baby.

TL;DR: Newgrounds.com, you are my waifu. ❤

this is kanbaru, the slutty animu personification of NG. she totally fits.

As NG user MintPaw so gracefully pointed out,
The way I've been coding is messy.
I've been making necessary mistakes,
and this brought me to the realization;
I need to take a step back.
I need to totally rewrite this code.
I need to learn more about how to do certain things in AS3,
and how to prevent certain mistakes.
I need to be MLC pro like MintPaw.

Sorry guys but it's gotta be done.
don't expect anything much too soon lol.
; _ ;

~Blue

I said HSAY would be done in a few weeks, but truth is, I've been working on another project. However, I've recently been working on HSAY a little bit more, as I want to have at least one game uploaded to ease the wait for my action/adventure/platformer game. Just to show you that I've been working, I've included a few screenies, so please bear with me!

~Blue

Which is really just my obnoxious way of saying:
"I've been learning AS3 faster than I thought I would, lol."

So I have finally learned enough AS3 to make a few types of games,
and I think it's time to upload my first AS3 project.
It's nothing more than a quiz game,
but I've added a few treats like a custom medalget system,
and some fun super minigames.
This game is actually part 3 in a series of quiz games I made,
but part 1+2 were deleted because of my embarrassment of the younger me.
mistakes you make when you're young kills you when you see them yourself, lol.
Anyway this game is only meant to be a stepping stone,
and I plan to finish it in a few weeks.
After this, I'll move on to something much bigger:
My Action/ Adventure/ platformer game I've been talking about.
Granted everything goes as planned, of course.
It shall have tons of gameplay,
great music,
a nice storyline (might need a good animator for this one),
and I'm even planning to have DLC event challenges.
I may or may not cut out that idea though.

Anyway, look forward to H.S.A.Y. 3!